Thursday, November 13, 2008

Yeah, I'm still alive

It's been a long time since I've posted, sorry 'bout that. I've been thinking about writing, but for some reason, I just haven't. I keep thinking that I should but don't have enough time to write a proper post like I want, so I just don't do it. But I figured that I'd better just jump back into it or I may never get back into blogging. So, here I am.

Something that I've been thinking about is the fact that I'm becoming less and less anonymous on this blog. My husband reads this (hey honey), a couple of people I know "in real life" and I've met some really wonderful, godly women, but sometimes I feel like I can't always say what's on my mind because it might hurt someone's feelings or make someone think less of me. Or because someone might not agree with my view. One of the biggest reasons that I started writing this blog was so I could have a place to "get it all out." I know it's not good to keep things bottled up, but when you don't really have any friends, it's hard to be able to vent. This blog was supposed to be my place to vent. I'm not sure what happened. I've thought about starting a completely different, completely anonymous blog and not telling anyone about it, so I can say whatever is on my mind without regard to what others might think of me. But then I realized how stupid that was. At the risk of sounding cliché, I'll share with you one of my favorite quotes, and a couple of proverbs I came across that pretty much sum up how I feel.

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." -Dr. Suess

" A mere friend will agree with you, but a true friend will argue." -Russian proverb

"False friends are worse than open enemies." -proverb

I'm going to be who I am and say what I feel. What I write may contain something you don't like or agree with. That's fine, argue with me about it if you want to. It may contain language you don't like. Don't read it if you don't want to. I want you to read what I write because you want to. So, as Forrest Gump would say, that's all I have to say about that.


Willow said...

Crystal, I have struggled with this as well and was, for a while, bending over backwards to make sure none of my "real people" knew the location of my blog. I've gotten over it. Who I am on my blog, happy times, neuroses, warts and all, that's who I am. I have lost a LOT of followers lately as my blog has evolved toward a more Christian bent.

You know what? I can live with that better than I can live with being phony -- both from a Christian and just a me point of view.

You go, girl, and the peeps who love you will probably only develop a deeper respect for you for being so open and honest.

Amy said...

It is hard to choose what to share and what to leave unsaid. It is definitely a fine line, but I decided a long time ago to just be me. What you see is what you get.

I have enjoyed getting to know you. And it is YOUR blog, so just keep being yourself.

That's how God made you!

God Bless,

Dr. Wifey said...

glad you are back.

Madeline said...

I think many bloggers struggle with this same issue. I can't write what I want because I'm in the midst of a divorce. If I wrote what I really wanted to there's a chance of it being used against me in court. But there's also the issue of hurting friends and family who read my blog. Sometimes I don't like it, but then other times I realize that maybe I don't want certain things permanently on the internet anyway.
I do however keep a journal. Actually I keep two. One for me, where I let it all hang out--to be burned at a later date. The other, for my son, I leave out the I hate your father for abandoning me while 3 months pregnant part and stick to the it's a wonderful life stuff. You just have to find your balance, and find what works for your life. Your family and friends will still love you even if they don't agree with you. I too have considered blogging completely anonomously, but with my luck I'd be found out.
I've really enjoyed your blog thusfar, so I certainly hope you keep at it. Don't be afraid of stumbling around a bit. We all do it. It's that darn human in us. :)

Crystal said...

Thank you for sharing your feelings about this with me, I really appreciate you and what you all have to say :-)

Tassie said...

I'm one of those people who want you to say what you mean because it doesn't matter to me!