Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Random thoughts

I don't have a well put together post today. Just thought I'd write down some of the things floating around and bumping into each other in my head.

The other night, Saturday I guess it was, I finally saw Twilight. Tassie, who is an awesomely fun, great person that I haven't seen in forever but read her every blog post, called me up and said she was going to see it again for the 6th time (yes 6, that's not a typo), with another friend and asked if I would like to see it too. Well, y'all know I don't get out much, so I jumped at the opportunity. And as much as I hated to admit it, I really liked the movie. I didn't want to like it, but I did. Usually when something gets all hyped up and everybody and their mama like it, I run the other way. I guess it's the nonconformist in me screaming "I don't want to be like everybody else!" But alas, I guess I am like everybody else. Of course I want to see how the story of Bella and Edward continues, so I'm listening to the audio book on my mp3 player while I clean.

Speaking of cleaning, I've started doing the Flylady stuff again. I'm really serious about it this time. I even put together a Control Journal and everything. But right now I'm still decluttering, and boy do we have a lot of clutter. We also have too small of a space for all of the stuff we really do need. But I'm making the best of it and really am trying not to complain about the smallness of our apartment anymore. That will be the last time I say anything about it. For a while anyway. Or at least until I get pissed off about it again. Anyhoo.....

Today is my final counseling appointment. I've been going to my counselor, who is wonderful, since August of '07 when work and life became so overwhelming that I didn't know what to do. She's helped me a lot, more than I can say really, but hopefully this will be the last time I see her. I haven't taken any medication for depression or anxiety since October (yes, my doctor approved it) and my last counseling appointment was in October, so we scheduled this appointment because she wanted to see how I'm doing, off of medication. I'm doing great. I've finally learned to get my priorities straight and to do what's best for myself rather than do what I think is supposed to be done or to do what I think others expect of me. Sure, I have a bad day here and there, but so does everybody else. Life is good and I'm excited about the future - those are things I couldn't say a year ago.

I guess I've rambled enough, I need to go declutter and listen to some more Twilight! I hope you are all having a great day!


Tassie said...

Yay!!! It sounds like you've really made lots of progress: emotionally, stress-wise, decluttering, and of course coming over the dark side. Which book are you listening to? I'd suggest starting with Twilight before reading on...there's lots of background the movie didn't cover...sorry to obsess.......I totally need a life. It was great seeing you! Let's get together again soon!

Madeline said...

Congratulations on being off of the meds!!! That is a major deal. I've been off of antidepressants for about 6 years now. At first there were some ups and downs, but now I'm able to deal with life's blows pretty well. Good luck to you!!

Anonymous said...

I'm way jealous of your friend - to get to see it 6 times? Awesome! I read all of the books first and still loved the movie.